The Dark, by Portia Casanova

In September when the school year was getting started, I saw a Facebook post from my niece, Maggie. I can’t remember what it said exactly, other than that they had just learned that all schools in Chicago were going to be online. I jokingly posted that I would be happy to work with my then 7 year-old grandniece, Portia, maybe do a songwriting workshop. Kind of preposterous since I only started writing songs the previous spring, but I had taken some classes, and learned some things along the way that I thought would be worth passing on. I knew Portia liked making up songs, and that she was good at it. I thought, maybe she would be interested in writing a song that she could perform, and that was documented so other people could sing it too. Turns out she wanted to, and her parents were wholly behind the effort Thus was born Portia’s Song Workshop.

We have just completed her first song, “The Dark.” That was our semester goal. We met each week for 30 minute sessions. We began by exploring what a song is and what makes writing a song different from other writing activities. By the end of that first lesson, Portia was literally climbing the walls.

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We studied different aspects of some of her favorite songs to learn about song structures, line length and number of lines, rhythm, rhyming schemes and types of rhymes. Portia came up with an idea for a song on her own. She had been singing it around the house, and in fact had the makings for a first verse, a pre-chorus and a chorus. So we started with that. Each week we focused on some different aspect of her song–rhythm, rhyme, verse development, honing the melody, identifying the key, and then came the really fun part. Her dad, Antonio, developed a piano accompaniment for her song. Her mother, Maggie, and I helped her with verse development. She practiced. She listened to the piano track on her iPad with headphones and sang to the accompaniment over Zoom. I captured just her voice.

Anne Page McClard · The Dark

Using these pieces in GarageBand I began to build Portia’s recording. I am a neophyte though, and when I played what I had done at the weekly family meeting my brother, Peter, and cousin,Garth, both experienced musicians and music producers, called out some problems. Later, Peter offered to help me fix them because he has more sophisticated software and knowledge, and I happily accepted. I really didn’t know what to expect. The result is beautiful, much better than what I had done with the same basic material. Anyway, I am grateful to have had everybody’s support with this effort. It has been magical and rewarding. Turns out there is light in the darkness that is now.

I hope you like it!

The Dark by Portia Casanova

When the lights turn off,
And you say good night,
and the door goes SLAM,
my eyes grow wide.
And I think…
Now that it’s night
Nightmares come to fright,
But I  know deep inside
If I  look at the sky
I’ll  see the only star in sight,
and how it shines.

And then I get a little shiver,
a shiver unlike others;
but I like it… I like the dark.
Ohhh ohh, I feel scared of it,
’cause there’s not a spark of light.

But I like it…
I like the dark.
There’s fright in the night.
Ohh Oh Ohhhhhh……
The dark, the dark,
The dark, the dark.

When I  fall  asleep,
And begin to dream…
What dreams may come…
will  teach me things.
Strange scenes,
And I  wonder why.
What’s real  and where am I?
But somehow I  know,
I’m asleep in my bed,
And this thought calms me down,
and I’m at rest.

And then I get a little shiver,
a shiver unlike others;
but I like it… I like the dark.
Ohhh ohh, I feel scared of it,
’cause there’s not a spark of light.

But I like it…
I like the dark.
There’s fright in the night.
Ohh Oh Ohhhhhh……
The dark, the dark,
The dark, the dark.

When the sun comes up,
And the light flows in
And the night is done…
The day begins.
And I  think…
Now that it’s day
I  have something to say
There’s no fear in the way
I  see the night anew.
Now I  know the light is there
In the dark of night.

And then I get a little shiver,
a shiver unlike others;
but I like it… I like the dark.
Ohhh ohh, I feel scared of it,
’cause there’s not a spark of light.

But I like it…
I like the dark.
There’s fright in the night.
Ohh Oh Ohhhhhh……
The dark, the dark,
The dark, the dark.

Bristlecone Pine

Those of you who know me, know that I am caring for my 93 year-old mother. She long ago expressed her interest in having her ashes released in the Bristlecone Pine forest on Mount Evans, Colorado when her soul has departed to wherever souls go. In this song I equate her with a Bristlecone Pine. Against all odds from the moment of her birth, she has survived the changes of time. The song is written as a waltz about the lasting dance that she will have among her sister pines.

Anne Page McClard · Bristlecone Pine

Lyrics

In her first act of defiance
She extended a crooked limb
Small soft fist, her hand
A show of self reliance
Her mother gently lay her down
on carpet of alpine moss
Seed sown in tundra
A prayer she’d soon be found

She dreams at night
of her lasting dance
High at timberline
You’ll find her spinning with the stars
Among the bristlecone pines

A seedling’s tendrils drilled deep
In  breach of limestone and ground
Gave her strength to endure
Assaults of wind, ice, and sleet
Another year of casting seeds
As winter yields to spring
Her trunk twists and turns
in time with earth’s lead.

She dreams at night
of her lasting dance
High at timberline
You’ll find her spinning with the stars
Among the bristlecone pines

She survived changes of time
Became a graceful old soul,
Tree beyond compare, a
Beautiful bristlecone pine
She’ll waltz there with her sister pines
Her soul will whisper in the wind
Caress pink asters
And kiss blue columbines

She dreams at night
of her lasting dance
High at timberline
You’ll find her spinning with the stars
Among the bristlecone pines

You’ll find her spinning with the stars
Among the bristlecone pines

Hummingbird

One day last summer I sat on the back deck practicing fiddle tunes on my mandolin. A hummingbird lit directly in front of me on a tomato cage, not more than four feet away. As I played, it seemed to be nodding in time to the music, and stayed there through at least seven tunes. I had never seen one still for such a long time. What a thrill. That moment inspired this song. We fell in love, and that’s not a lie.

Anne Page McClard · Hummingbird

Lyrics

I once  heard a hummingbird sing
Know it seems like a fanciful thing
He sang a song as sweet as sweet tea
Beautiful words he sang to me

Listen and you can see reality
If you watch you can hear the truth
Open your eyes to the world around
Open your mind to magical sound

We danced by the light of the moon
In his silvery wings I did swoon
He glittered in the starry night sky
We fell in love,  that’s not a lie

Listen and you can see reality
If you watch you can hear the truth
Open your eyes to the world around
Open your mind to magical sound

He perched awhile then flew away fast
Whispered to me, our love will last
I dream of his song by day and by night
Not heard a word or ever caught sight

I gaze to the heavens above
I think, maybe I’ll hear my true love
Listen and look, there’s a chance you’ll see
If you see him tonight , send  love from me

Listen and you can see reality
If you watch you can hear the truth
Open your eyes to the world around
Open your mind to magical sound

She Stands Tall

I wrote this song as a love anthem to my daughter, Zoë, who is 28 years-old now, on the occasion of her birthday. Anybody who knows her can attest that she has overcome some pretty incredible odds. Not going to delve into all the details, but suffice to say, today she stands tall at 6 feet, and of all of her gifts her kindness and caring for others rises high above others.

Anne Page McClard · She Stands Tall

Lyrics

She came into my life
On a cold October day
The leaves were falling
And the skies were gray
She was pink and
perfect as a simple rose
Pure and soft
as rain in the spring

We’re all born blind, and learn to see
We must walk before we run
Everyone babbles before they talk

She stands tall as an oak tree
But she bends like a willow in the wind
Different child
Gentle soul
Heart of gold
She stands tall as an oak tree
But she bends like a willow in the wind

We’re all different she used to say
And she knows this too well
Still she found her way

She reaches to the sky
Sun shines golden on her face
Green eyes opened wide
She is full of grace
She has pride, is
Stronger than an ocean wave
Push and pull
As moon to tide

We’re all born blind, and learn to see
We must walk before we run
Everyone babbles before they talk

She stands tall as an oak tree
But she bends like a willow in the wind
Different child
Gentle soul
Heart of gold
She stands tall as an oak tree
But she bends like a willow in the wind

Different child
Gentle soul
Heart of gold
Heart of gold
Heart of gold
Heart of gold

What Have I Done?

This song began as birthday musing about my life of accomplishments, or the lack thereof, but as I worked on it, it became a song about childhood regrets, and thoughts of simple acts of living life, like making bread and putting out ant traps. All in all, life has been pretty good to me. Ends on “What haven’t I done?”

Anne Page McClard · What Have I Done?

Lyrics

Fell in love when I was just five
Barely alive              
He was a pretty boy
Skin chocolate brown
Chased him home, and knocked him down

Wondering what I have done?
Lord, oh lord, what have I done?

I’ve lived a long time
Drank some fine wine
What have I done?
Had lots of fun.

Son of a gun
I’ve had lots of fun
Son of gun
I’ve had lots o fun.

Made a friend, told her she was fat
Tit for tat
Blue bells and cockle shells,
Open to hope
Kissed her lips, and jumped some rope

Wondering what I have done?
Lord, oh lord, what have I done?

I’ve lived a long time
Drank some fine wine
What have I done?
Had lots of fun.

Son of a gun
I’ve had lots of fun
Son of gun
I’ve had lots o fun.

Woke up this morning, another year gone
Drank a cup of coffee, made a loaf of bread
Put out some ant traps, made my bed
Life is short
Life is short
That’s what I said
Another year older, but not finished yet.

Once was young, was pretty and smart
Had a big heart
I still have my dreams
Got lots of love
Racing through life, and kicking its butt

Wondering what I have done?
Lord, oh lord, what have I done?

I’ve lived a long time
Drank some fine wine
What have I done?
Had lots of fun.

Son of a gun
I’ve had lots of fun
Son of gun
I’ve had lots o fun.

Lord, oh lord, what haven’t I done?